(19a) Addendum to (19)
The Crusader Campaign (080-1123 to 084-1123)
Kalida's Third Klatrin Experience
Kalida's second klatrin experience starts out much
like the first, with the shrinking and expanding and floating.
Again she has come in with a definite purpose,
directing her experience as much as she can. At the end of the
last experience, she had found something in particular that was pulling
her, and she was trying to follow it. At the very end she had a
flash of recognition of one of the shadows, but couldn't identify
it. She's looking for it again.
Things look different now. There's a pattern
emerging among the threads. Several levels and clusters, and
everything folding through what has to be Tussinian. What
it does before there has some fuzziness. She's seeing the threads
not just as a single line, but as possibilities existing in fuzzy
states as they interact with other threads.
At this point, she's pulling more threads than are
pulling her. There's one thing in particular pulling her and all
sorts of other things, fairly strong threads but getting fuzzier at the
end of the pull. She picks one of the stronger ones, trying to
follow it back, and finds that it's directly driving her -- it's
pulling her with her consent.
She backs off that, and tries to follow the threads
that she herself is pulling. She quickly finds that leads her to
the fuzzy mass the other side of Tussinian. It's suddenly
clear that a lot of that pulling is not voluntary, and the effects are
not predictable -- except that her involuntary pulling is strengthening
its direction, like she's influencing it in the direction it already
wants to go.
Everything focusses through Tussinian, but
it's not clear that she can follow much from that onwards. It's
not so much fuzzy as confusing, as if she hasn't made sense out of it
yet. There's other threads coming off before that, that are
heading out in strange directions that make no sense to her.
She tries to focus in on that, and realizes that
everything she does, whether she wants it to or not, is influencing
things -- and at the moment the direction of that influence is not in
the way she wants things to go. A wave of paranoia washes over
her. It's really hard to decide what to do when it feels like if
she gets it a little wrong, or perhaps even more so if she makes the
right choice, that it's making it worse for her. It's odd, and
the feeling that the unintended consequences are looking bigger than
the intended ones will stay with her for some time.
She feels that something is happening as a direct
result of something she's done, and while she can't be sure, it's looks
like there's more threads than there used to be. She feels she
hasn't been paranoid enough, as there are threads she is sure represent
something she's never considered, and she can't figure out what
yet. There is some possibility, something going on, that has
far-reaching fuzzy effects, an explosion of thread possibilities.
She pulls back to Tussinian again, because
everything is going through there. She picks a thread at random
going beyond it. This one doesn't look good, threads are
exploding and collapsing, multiplying in small areas and vanishing
around, as if the Imperium itself were breaking up. And it's all
influenced by those unintended consequences. It's almost as if
one day she decides to have, or not have, coffee, that the state of the
Imperium relies on that one decision.
Now it looks like whatever she does, and whatever
she follows, things just get worse. Maybe she'll just sit there
and try to figure out how those other threads are pulling her.
The other ways just look dangerous.
The threads that are pulling her are pulling through
her, being influenced by her choices as they pass through. She
can't escape the consequences of small actions that way.
Generally the threads pulling her do feel more comfortable, though,
there's less danger lying along those until the fuzziness sets in and
She realizes that Norris is a major factor pulling
her, and of course he's pulling other threads not related to her that
don't seem to make any sense.
There are some things going on that do not depend on
Tussinian that do not look comfortable. Things that she
just hasn't considered. Something is now going to happen as the
result of an unintended consequence, a quite solid thread that she
can't identify, but she knows that there are friends that are caught up
She has noticed that everyone has their own threads
among the crew, hers are separate. They are, of course, very
closely linked right now, and a lot of threads they are pulling
together -- particularly the unintended ones. She starts to try
to pick out a thread that connects only to her, not to the others.
Suddenly an instinct turns her to a thread
elsewhere. She knows for certain that something bad is going to
happen to the Duke of Adabicci, and it's going to happen because of
something she has done. He is in trouble. It's something
she hadn't even considered, and she can't trace it no matter how hard
she tries. It's something everyone has been missing, and that's
where it is. Adabicci. It's coming soon, too, but
probably at least a month later than the 110-1123 date she had
That was her very first concern and she messed it up
anyway. And it's with that realization, in shock and paranoia,
that she drops out of the trance.