(14a) Addendum to (14)
The Crusader Campaign (068-1123 to 071-1123)
Kalida's Second Klatrin Experience
Kalida's second klatrin experience starts out much
like the first, with the shrinking and expanding and floating.
This time, however, she's come in with a purpose, to get a handle on
the threads that are connecting everything.
And she achieves that, very suddenly and quite
unexpectedly finding herself connected to everything and tangled up in
it. She can move, but she's caught in it, and when she does it
pulls everything else. She can only move very slowly, and all
sorts of effects ripple through everything. Whatever scale she
shifts up or down, she has effects on those scales. Shrinking
everything down, and suddenly stars wink out when she wiggles her
finger, and new ones appear over there when she twitches her
nose. When she drifts down in scale, particles start dancing with
each other because of the threads connecting everywhere.
She tries to remain still. The act of
remaining still tweaks the threads. They are always in motion
anyway. Just the act of looking to see what happens tweaks the
threads. So she experiments with tweaking things to see what
Kalida remains stuck for what seems like a long
time, and the threads start pulling her too. She's losing
control, way too much caught up in anything. Moving one way
causing her to be pulled in other ways, and ends up with her moving not
quite where she wanted to go.
Kalida then tries not remaining still but not
purposefully moving, just letting the threads pull her. This
seems to work. She's being pulled around, and it's a lot calmer
feeling except for the suspicion that someone is pulling her around
deliberately. She's feeling watched, and it seems like someone
over there is pulling these threads a lot more effectively than she
can. She contines to relax and let herself be pulled, but paying
attention to what is moving her.
She's now convinced something is pulling her
around. She can't see it, but she can infer its existence by the
way it's pulling the threads. The scale of the interactions,
however, is still too large for her to grasp. Nevertheless, she
gets the feeling that the shadow that's doing the pulling is itself
being pulled and not realizing it. Her action of moving with the
pull, in turn pulls the shadow.
After a while, she can start to direct how it pulls
her by how she's being pulled. She focusses on that. She
still doesn't have full freedom of movement, but through the
interaction with this shadow that's manipulating her and being
manipulated back, she's starting to resolve the picture of the threads,
cutting out some of the ones that she's less interested in. Even
though everything affects everything else, she can classify the more
global effect and push it out of the way to look at others in a bit
more isolation. This is what she has been wanting to do, and
although it's still very difficult, she works hard on it.
Her next thing it to try to see how the shadow is
interacting with his connections. When she starts to do that,
however, she starts to lose all sense of locality of connections.
He's connected to other things, and so's she, and Kalida is quickly
getting lost in the scale again. She draws back.
That's much better, much calmer.
She resumes trying to manipulate him indirectly, and
see what effects it has. She has some success with this,
following different thread networks. That's when she notices that
the reason she's manipulating this shadow that way, is because that's
what that one is doing to her. Nevertheless, she
Finally she gets a sense of being able to move
within the connections, but while being affected, affect back and
direct. She's getting some grasp of control.
Suddenly she gets a flash of recognition. She
knows she recognizes one of the shadows, but it's just a recognition on
the meta-level. She doesn't know which one it was, even, and
doesn't know what it might be. She continues carefully with what
she's been doing, hoping for another flash, but it doesn't come.